Campaigns or clown festival?

this is a work in progress, so bare with me. I am absolutely saddened by the lack of viable republican candidates in the 2016 race. I honestly feel like it is a pathetic attempt to just put names in front of Americans. it really feels like a big joke. 

Donald Trump seems to fall outside the norm, and that's fine, but he has no experience in nearly any policy that would be important to have as a President. 

Shock and Awe

Today I read something that shouldn't have shocked me. I shouldn't have been surprised. In fact it was only a couple months ago that I was telling her that it was going to happen. I knew that as soon as she was available, legally, he would ask, and I told her I knew that she would say yes.
None of it is about me.
I'm happy for her, as long as this is really what she wanted to make her happy. So if she is happy, I am happy for her.
Our end has happened so many times.
I pray that we never know our pasts again, and maybe there is a future between us as friends.
I don't believe it will be. I believe I am a threat to anyone that she is with.

Guilt or just plain arrogance?

When I came to you, three times; I asked you each time, what was wrong? What was it I had done. You gave me some bullshit answer about how it was just that you didn't like talking on the weekends, and you hate texting. And you told me you didn't understand what had happened in the first place as to why we had stopped talking at all. All of it was a lie.

You told me, the things that bothered you were the same as the things that bothered me, and yet I find out today, that you sold me out to the crew that you said you hated, you couldn't stand being around. You said that you were repulsed at how they acted like they belonged in a zoo. You hated the racists comments.

I find out today that you sold me out and told them that I had complained about them. That I had gone to HR and gave them a list of people that would side with me when that was never the case.

I did go to HR. HR asked for a list of people that might would collaborate my story, all so that I could simply move my desk away from all of the negativity I got from, what I assume now are your friends. If HR had contacted you, or anyone else, all you had to do was tell them the truth. Instead you sold me out.

After everything I have ever done for you.

I gave you and your daughter a roof over your heads. I provided you electricity, internet; in some cases furniture.

You cost me a new dryer, because you had to thrown 30 towels in to dry at once, and it burned out the motor. Someone put something down the garbage disposal and I had to have that replaced. I got you the job you're in now. If I hadn't taken care of all of that for you, where would you or your daughter be?

Seriously?

This is how you treat someone like me, who at every chance has stuck my neck out and tried to be a friend and provide for you? This is how you treat me?!?

This is sad... Truly sad. But I'm thankful I now know what and who you really are as a person. I'm so thankful that I can now close this chapter of my life to you, and all the lies and insencerity that is you, FH or FS... whatever name you choose to go by.

Pure Fishing Parking Lot Protest

So this is the corporate web-site for Pure Fishing.

www.purefishing.com

Pure Fishing is a subsidiary of JARDEN. (www.jarden.com)

I don't imagine that either of the companies are responsible for this note left on my car today, as it was hand-written on a sticky note:

I don't know what sort of SEO infrastructure they have, but I am really hoping that someone from #purefishing finds this post and responds.

I park in virtually the same parking spot, every day. It just happens that it is in the parking lot that is adjacent to our parking lot. I park in that lot because our lot fills up, every single day and our employees spill over into the adjacent lot daily.

I walked out to my car this afternoon to put a couple lunch containers in my vehicle and I found the note glued to my window.

I'm not necessarily annoyed with the fact that someone put it on my window, and under my windshield wiper, but more annoyed at the fact that, on any given day, there are easily 200 spaces free in the adjacent parking lot, and the space that I choose to "usually" park in against the outer edge of the parking lot, far from their doors. There are plenty of free spaces available between my vehicle and the entrance to the Pure Fishing building.

I find it hard to believe that my choice in location is inhibiting anyone's ability to find safe parking close to where they work. I think this is absurd.

It makes me want to leave a note in my car, after parking in the same spot, articulately written, "F-U. Quit fishing in our pond."

Time has passed... Baltimore

Is it just me? Or does it seem like time passes more and more quickly as we get older? I complain weekly about how long it feels like days are when I'm at work, but the weekends and even the evenings and nights seem to fly by with out any consideration for my desire that they last. It's hard to believe that it's the end of April. Seriously... the end of April.
Where is 2015 going?
I guess it's on it's way to 2016.
I haven't written here in a while, not for any other reason than I am just lost in my own world and writing about it sometimes seems too personal to do. So I just keep the thoughts internal an move on.
But there are those events, that while do not effect me directly have an affect.
There is clearly a stigma of preconceived thoughts when it pertains to police and their bias with young african-american men. Baltimore. Ferguson. St. Louis. North Charleston.
I ask some friends and co-workers if this is a situation that is getting worse, or if this is just how things have been but it's finally getting coverage. They all agree; this is a situation that has existed for much longer than it seems that it has been reported. Sadly.
But thanks to easy access to cameras on phones, it's becoming more and more available when it occurs, because witness can easily post it to the world; just like this.
What's the fix? Clearly this being a negative bias on a particular group of human beings is bigoted and racist. Any denial of it being different is just that; denial.
So what is the fix? Sensitivity training?
I have never received any sort of law enforcement training, and I find it hard to believe that any officer would ever admit that they were trained with Ferguson, and Baltimore in mind.
It's sad that we, as humans have developed a sense, sometimes, well.... a lot of the times, false sense of recognition of a person, their intentions and their character based purely on their appearance, skin color, location, attire, or even mannerisms.
Is this an evolutionary thing? How many thousands of years old is this?
In the end for today, I guess I just want to ask for prayers of calming and understanding for all that are effected, directly and indirectly. Forgiveness and justice are needed in these situations.

Remember, remember; the (month) of November

It's already November... November.. 2013... Unbelievable. It's ridiculous that another year is almost completely gone past and another year is almost here. 2014... 

You know, sometimes it feels like I just learned to make myself write 2013. And now, we're about to move into 2014. November is cool though. Thanksgiving is coming up, and that's cool. You have to like Thanksgiving. 

Okay, has anyone been watching American Horror Story: Coven? Wow... I can say, without any doubt, this year's story is about the most disturbing, and gruesome that has come along. It's a good show, and the story is really interesting. I am intrigued by what I watch, but wow. Just freakishly ghastly. But it's still good. 

Continued prayers for Sohpie

Just an update, and also, please continue to pray for the speedy recovery of Sophie. 

She is still in the hospital at MUSC, where they did find that some of the infection did get through to her brain. She has had a PICC line put in to be able to get medication straight to her. 

From what I understand, the operation was a success, but they are continuing to monitor her and keep her at the hospital. The last I heard was that she will be released on Monday. She is in good spirits, but with the situation being described as "serious," it gives us all anxiety. 

So please, continue to pray for her continued recovery and that she returns to full health. Please pay for the serenity of her family, and friends. Please pray that our Lord continues to look down upon her in His loving and healing light. 

All our times are in Thy hand.
     All diseases come at Thy call, and go at Thy bidding. 
Thou redeemest our life from destruction, and crownest us with loving kindness and tender mercies. We bless
Thee, that Thou hast heard prayer, and commanded deliverances for our friend and Thy servant, who has been under Thine afflicting hand. 
     He (or she) was brought low, but Thou hast helped him (her). May he (she) not only live, but declare the works of the Lord!
As Thou hast delivered his eyes from tears, his feet from falling, and his soul from death, may he daily inquire:What shall I render unto the Lord for all his benefits towards me,and resolve to offer unto Thee the sacrifices of thanksgiving, and to call upon the name of the Lord.
May we ever remember that recovery is only a reprieve and that some day we will go to our rest in the Lord. May we therefore secure the righteous path and live with eternity ever in our view.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. Please, continue. Thank you.